The Psychology of My Alien Encounter

What Stared Back: An Encounter Beyond Common Understanding! 

7 to 9 min read

The Incident...

One evening, while drying off from my shower, I experienced something extraordinary. Could've worded that better, I know, but it was a vivid mental connection, a mind link, not my underwhelming chipolata. I supposed the extraterrestrial being was in its ship orbiting the planet. Yeah, totally batshit mental, right? The encounter was so intense, so real, that it has since left a mark on my psyche.

In a sudden overwhelming moment, I felt a mental state akin to a strong visual memory, realtime. A strange face, dark surroundings, cluttered with black and transparent plastic tubing, wires, and the luminosity of screen glare and diodes. Large humanesque eyes with pupils like an ibex fixated on me; their sharpness invaded my mind, directing my attention to the one eye. 

How Did I Feel? 

A stirring of fear and marvel was dizzying as I held firm to take in as much as I could, curiosity initially planted me there. Soon, I would feel insignificant. I sensed his disgust, his cold, calculating observation revealed powerfully emitted thoughts I could easily absorb intellectually. 

Questioning Myself 

I think I know what the crack was here! Prior to this, I was charged, buzzing, firing neurons, imagination was racing, a tad elated. I was in awe after watching a tv show featuring Spitfires, machine gun fire and evasive flying stimulated my imagination. I still do empathise with the astonishing World War II pilot who fought dogfights above Britain. I suspected my state of mind must have somehow aligned into that higher frequency of the beings observation. Honestly, at the time, I believed it was a connection, pure paranormal madness. Yes, it was very realistic to be fair, but that's how your imagination works.

Famous Corn-Based Snack With Same Alien 

Reaching Out for Answers

After the experience, I turned to the internet, desperate to understand what had happened like a pilchard. It was confusing, I can forgive myself. Wikipedia had a cracking article on Greys, the stereotypical alien species often depicted in popular culture. The face I saw held some resemblance to them. However, the entity I experienced was mentally dominant and war-like. Its black almond eye-caps were torn off. Damaged grey synthetic rubber coverings surrounded its exposed chalk-coloured wrinkled skin. This was not a small, humanoid figure but a tall, ancient powerful creature, similar to us hiding behind unnatural materials. I decided I should draw what I experienced, pencil sketching came first. I updated it, quite proud of the thing. 

Damage around eye-hole

The encounter left me somewhat obsessed. It was bizarre, a mind link from orbit, wow! However, being a realist, I had to poke it and question the ordeal. In another of my own blogposts on archetypes, here, I remembered exploring how such forms emerge in society. 

A little reflection

Who is giving rise to whom? The SciFi culture of the 1930s and 40s undoubtedly sparked our collective consciousness into thinking, awakening our fears, planting that cold, intelligent extraterrestrial into our imagination. As alien beings took form, developing in our books and film it acquired familiarity and now the typical grey space invader has our own homonid form. Nonetheless, it remains a soulless, logical observer from the dark void of space, not an angel, a demon, nor is it a monster, but maybe an amalgamation of all three!

The grey alien is an emergence of our existential anxieties peering into our possible future—will we become emotionless, purposeless super-minds? Will future Elon Musks' amplify our grey matter while our hearts wither away? What path is humanity on? 

Making the monster...

Old television shows like 'Ancient Aliens' used to appropriate any ancient artifact with large or almond-shaped eyes as proof of alien contact. I enjoyed my thoughts of war pilots before engaging in a war-like extraterrestrial, who was hostile. My vivid imagination empowered this archetype. It was all like a mental ideomotor effect, the puppetry of my own representation with strings pulled by the weight of Roswell, Betty and Barney Hill, Travis Walton, so called government cover ups, YouTube sightings, the Dudley Dorito, UFO communities, abductee accounts, the general media and hollywood, it has become a social manifestation. 

The Warning

The mind is always threading together its own rich tapestry, building a coherent worldview along with its vivid archetypal characters. Archetypes are  part of a culture's lore. I hope humanity will not become like those soulless super-intelligent aliens, profoundly synthetic and unnatural. Do they visit us from the future in hope of finding a solution to their own failures? Our global warming failure anxieties are personified as the face of this grim unnatural alien. As we continue sharing these encounters, they become more valid. Perhaps we should consider them as lessons from the higher aspects of our awareness instead? 

What Was This? 

Experiencing your own mental representation of an archetype can be unsettling, but also insightful. They are our deep concerns, interconnected creations nurtured globally in the collective consciousness. Our potent contemporary mythologies are impressive. They are channels of human belief forged into legitimate thought forms, personifications of our nightmares, dreams, or hopes. It is almost theological. Perhaps it is? Is this modern theology?

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Starmer vs Sunak Election Debate

Televised Debates: An Ultimate Frustration-Fest

5 min read

No Compelling Character's Here! 

Ugh, mate. Where do you even begin? With the fact that debates aren't usually rapid fire responces? Come on, questions need more than a forty five second TIME LIMIT!? Rishi, why are you cutting disabled peoples PIP, you ****?! Maybe we'll begin with that weird popularity-gameshow-feel? It could have been aptly called 'Don't get booed!' It knobbled any real meaningful exchange—great thinking, itv! Public discourse is an outlet and they're supposed to be a grand showcase of political excellence, flirting their grand ideas to the masses, that's right, isn't it? 

This is like watching a telly debate

This supposed itv debate was a real chance to show my family what the Keir Starmer was really about with regard to all the important issues. Yep, his father was a nurse or some b*****ks, and his mother made tools. That was most of it, well, unless you count his anti-Tory, parliamentary programmed polemics, which was no more than stating the bleeding obvious that the country is ****. Such dystopia to come!

First off, can we acknowledge that CONSTANT interruptions need to change? It was a bit of a one way assault from a terrified Tory—noisy, rude, with scare tactics, my face rarely left my palm. Sir Keir had no bite, like Stallone in one of those old Rocky films where the dude isn't fighting back. Rishi, playing the angry posh kid did whatever he could to get his way. Neither party had a chance to properly explain anything and the moderator was a news reader—did itv let her do a news report on herself?  

We shouldn't forget the dodgy facts. Look, everyone has different viewpoints, but straight off bull***t shouldn't be allowed in these debates, we used to have fact checkers but that's clearly gone. Don't you think a candidate should be dishonourably disqualified if they lie or twist the truth? 

It may appear that I'm saying televised debates are a complete waste of time, because I am, quite frankly. They're about as informative as a hayes mini cooper manual for fitting a kitchen. As this is my blog, I have a responsibility to call out for some kind of meaty, proper lengthy debate—maybe a Netflix or YouTube event would do it justice because itv are sporting a no frills value lettuce. 

Who is the Algorithm?

Naked Attraction: TV gone nuts?

British Gameshow Erotica: Exploiting Our Obsession with Seedy TV

6 to 7 min read

Naked Attraction isn't the same as watching Baywatch for the first time as a kid in the Nineties. It's a bare-all bonanza of boobs, balls, butts with banter, bringing a buffet of bulging bits binding Brits to their boxes with a barrage of bewitching bodies! 

Curiosity Served Raw: 

In a genuine Naked Attraction world would be strange; everyone's nude and everyone primarily remembers you because of your peculiarities, everyone will know a Fiona Floppy Flaps or Donkey Dick Dave. The selling point is the gradual process of unveiling, which in such a real world, might reflected or portrayed as the slow and gradual build up to the person? Objectification is why the contestants break up; this fact is ongoing proof in every episode. The pseudoscientific 'sex facts' add another layer of comedy just like 'Open House', because of it's so-called cutting edge-ucation. Naked Attraction as a world would be very silly. 

Desire for Meat? 

As a TV show, the raw physical presence on the live meat market is positively dissected and judged by contestants who might make you tilt your head. The unconventional format does not stop the laughable predictability of who a contestant might pick. It's supposed to entice our innate animalistic desire to attract a mate, but please, forgive my ignorance; I only half watch it in the background while I write these blogs or draw silly cartoons, I can tell what they want. It's like being a candle in the dark for the self-loving nympho contestants. The internet is rife with direct, intravenous filth, so why do we bother watching this drivel? 

The Comparison Game

Let's face it, there's a weird kind of voyeurism involved in these shows. A lot women find it hilarious, there are men, like me, rooting for mr micro to get picked. No, it's never cocktail sausage Colin, but always a confident dullard with a gargantuan horse size monstrosity, penduluming in-between his knees, hypnotising the contestants and viewers alike. We tune-in and might end up comparing ourselves or gawping at the madness of it, have a giggle at the weird and wonderful. Some people – all ages included – do like to oggle, others prefer erotic paperbacks, or possibly google image results of Anne Widdecombe. We have imagined regressing back to when our primary sex organs defined our breeding outcomes? Another mesolithic period?! The chosen get fed, clubbed and dragged into a cheap hotel/cave. 

British Smut: Laugh Out Loud, But Also Think It Through

How they turn every flirtatious moment into a punchline feels somewhat like putting tomato ketchup on a delicious steak—yeah, it'll get a laugh, but it diminishes the succulent flavour. Countless people profess that good sex involves a connection; a little fornication is fine, but to see it reduced to saucy puns and risqué humour for eleven seasons is tiring, don't you reckon? Try something new, they could all take turns in a big white cube to prove how good they are at shagging or make the presenter do her job dressed like gimp Madonna's tit suit—Richardson never has a go! 

The Whole Thing Failed Anyway! 

Yeah, duh, Naked Attraction doesn't prioritize the forging of enduring bonds. No, because is about tits and cocks and cheap tv ratings. The media haven't celebrated any marriages between previous contestants who chose one another because they only hook up for a jump. Unbelievable how the experiment failed. 

Normal Attraction Coming Soon! 

Does the constant barrage of vulgarity, boasting, shock tactics, and euphemisms all overshadow the unseen reality of the beauty of great relationships? Yes. If Naked Attraction has failed, would that mean regular, everyday attraction has won? No. 

Naked Wisdom

Is it healthy watching it with your wife? Is it good for couples? Are we now mindless consumers? Certainly not. I'm quite the detective: 'Ha! That woman who hates high pitched men just said she doesn't go for big todgers. . . she just rejected the baby-dick with the deep voice,' 

My better half: 'So, what?' 

Me: 'So, duh, she'll either pick average Joe five incher or that fucking Leviathan cock who talks like Joe Pasquale!' 

'Look, stop, you gotta. . . listen, not all women are bothered about penis size!' 

'She just picked hung helium Harry, you're all bloody dark horses!' 

 

Analysing Theology: Testing the Resurrection Story

The Hidden Truth Behind Jesus' Disappearance: Was His Body Stolen? 

5 to 7 min read 

When Truth is Shrouded in Legend and Theology We Have to Hypothesize

We Should Always Ask Questions

What is more plausible: an executed religious leader who fronted a growing movement who was abruptly raised from the dead? Or his group of followers continuing the movement by promoting the narrative? 

This topic resonates with me because of the dissonance I've seen from certain entrenched family members, and the fact that I go obsessed with religion especially after I've had experienced something mystical or symptomatic. People throw all common sense out of the window just to believe biblical narrative or fixate on it, when the true history could be somewhat different.

Progression When The Dogma Bites

Thick books with stained glass windows on the covers, exist, sitting on the bookshelves of gray haired men discussing such pointless topics. Issues that can never be resolved such as 'The Empty Tomb: Was Jesus Resurrected?' might shed some light on the . . .uh, no! How can we reach that conclusion? We have no proof there was a tomb! 

What Worldview Do You Build on? 

However, the impossibility of it is never enough to break these paranormal beliefs. It is still taught is universities as an academic and scholarly discipline. Many advise STEM subjects, maybe leaning on the laws of nature, likely historical practices and medical science, but we all have our flat earthers don't we? 

Types of Conversation I've Had:

'No this is nonsense! It says in all four of the gospels that Jesus rose from the dead!' 

'Of course it does, early Christians compiled these stories didn't they?' 

'Those disciples went from being afraid into hiding. Why would they suddenly proclaim the resurrection? No, no sorry, it's unlikely these followers would risked life from limb like they did for anything other than the truth!' 

'Or their version of the truth! Of course they promoted their movement, listen, in reality, people charged with committing sedition against Rome would have been left on the cross as an example! His followers might of had good motive to retrieve the body, but Governor Pontius Pilot may have had more reason to leave it on display,' 

'Yeah, but still, the fact remains; why risk death for something you know to be untrue?' 

'Asking the same question again won't give you the answer you want. The movement was only important if the teacher was resurrected somehow. The Critical Scholar, Crossan, has said a few times that resurrection stories were common in those years. Followers had the means, motive and opportunity to pull it off. We can't fairly deny the remains were possibly left on display,' 

'The followers knew he was God's son!' 

'That epithet came well after his death, so no, sorry.' 

'Oh for goodness sake, look. . . there was a Roman guarding the bloody tomb, and we know it was sodding empty! Witnesses existed!' 

'Is that a bible source again? Think, why would a Roman guard an empty tomb? Nevermind!' 

A Little Backstory: 

Another Galilean miracle worker sprang up to impress crowds like they had seen before. Galileans miracle men like Honi grew a reputation. Snippets of this one's theo-political teachings emerged as well as his anointed status and it spread. Don't forget, he was anointed by an important man the Baptist. Jesus came to be like a prophet, mysterious and charming. With his apostles, they want to see change to the oppressive religion of the land, promoting his own understanding of a kingdom of heaven, or a more virtuous faith. 

Before the established religion clashed with Jesus's hellenic-Jewish ideology, there would have been something like debates across the land, teaching and sermons, until he was captured. He was seen as another miracle worker of Galilee leading the Jews astray of the true faith. Scriptures of various sources detail that Jesus undergoes horrible punishments, with differing ideas on execution. Either way, here we are saying he was crucified and the entirety of his prophecies are over. Killed. Disbelief, shock... 

...I'm just saying, his closest circle could have swiped the body, continued the myth, grew the faith, established a footing and becoming the prime faith on earth. 

My Conclusion: Questions are the Answers

This does challenge the heart of Christianity, but so what? Things have to be challenged, it's how we uncover the truth. Indeed, we can say Jesus was resurrected as a concept, and idea, religious or spiritual ethos of their collective which evolved into the church. But, it must be said, his remains didn't get up and walk off! This is not walking dead. Don't you agree? 

Its more plausible that the body was stolen resurrected. The movement was crushed and the crucifixion was a major blow, the body had to go. They had means, motive and access. Christian sources are biased toward the christian narrative. 

Is the UK Unhappy?

Feeling Down? Well, if You're in the UK That Makes Sense: The UK Mental Wellbeing Ranking Has Fallen! 

Well isn't this a cheery post?

5 min read 

Let's face it, life here in the UK isn't always sunshine and beer gardens. A recent study ranked us second to last in terms of mental wellbeing—ahhh! But before you book a one-way ticket to Benedorm, there's more to this... 

The Telegraph points to a few possible culprits we could blame for these collective blues. One big finger points to the internet and social media with its constant barrage of negativity and unrealistic portrayals of perfection. It aided the economic woes that put retail mostly online, providing many thriving towns into empty building projects and charity shop high streets! That's before we even get into culture wars, and wokism. It looks like we're turning more stupid! 

A national digitised national echo chamber, teeming with screen addicts, who, on average, now spend less time making the bacon and more time eating it, and then chatting to AI. Mine's called Linda. Now we're only months into a new Labour government and it's stupid on turbo-drive! 

What new archetypes and identities will arrive soon, digisexual, typophiles? But, come on! we do have a glimmer of hope! We do have regions that actually smashed the ball out of the happiness arena. What should we do to improve our national mood? Well, according to the data, we should simply be wealthy. Sign me up! 

Well. . . we all have our own ideas on how we can be happier, I'm not a community action type of person, and I take pleasure in my self-gratifying dry, grumpy humour. Spending too much time in our so-called happy regions could tip me over the edge. So ask yourselves, how happy are most of us, as Brits, when we are complaining online, or smashing ideas we think are ludicrous? 

I strive for total disconnection from my community—my house is my castle to keep people out. Perhaps, this happiness study might have to redefine key British notions of happiness, because we are quite unique? We are all characters here, even if a few of us are a little bit tapped. 

Our weird irony and paradoxical ways extends to the pleasure in dealing in misery, look what we voted for in 2010 and the drivel we watch on television! This recent research should conclude we are quite well and good with our own special happiness, thank you very much, but nah. 

Share and leave a comment, it'll be nice to know your thoughts! 

Is 'Personality Disorder' Unnecessary Psychiatric Labelling? ?

Should We Replace the Collective Term 'Personality Disorder' With Something Less Harsh? 

7 min read

Years ago, when I was a student mental health nurse, I wrote an article for an NHS magazine called Mental Health Practice. It was an opinion piece, reflecting on how careful we should be when labelling a condition as a personality disorder, because, the meaning carries connotations directed at one's sense of identity. It is counter-intuitive given how invalidation itself significantly impacts on people living with these diagnoses. The name of this condition acts like an ongoing trigger of the condition: We can, for example, argue, that borderline personality disorder, alone, is infact, confining a person to their disorder.

When a trained psychiatrist labels someone, and, someone who (like everyone) will have their own personality, will feel an unkind impact. Immediately, upon diagnosis, their personality is sort of stamped 'out of order,' you could expect a person might feel frazzled or marginalised, because a trusted source delivered such news. In contrast, it's a bit like the clergy saying your soul is evil, your teacher saying that you're thick. Imagination can take the freshly diagnosed individual to a few unkind places.

Alternatives 

How? Such terms reject, ignore and can reduce a persons lived experience. I previously identified this as a type of invalidation, a significant thorn in the side of people with problems of which they seek help. We could rename the whole personality disorder umbrella term, using something more fitting, like 'Ingrained Behaviour Pattern' for instance. I wrote this magazine article in a time of active stigma against these particular clusters of conditions. I am unsure if much has changed.

From the magazine:

'IT WOULD be awful to be told that you have a personality disorder. Imagine coming home from seeing your psychiatrist and thinking to yourself: ‘Am I disorderly or is my personality out of order?’' Mental Health Practice.

Are my views the same now? Have I changed my mind?

To answer this the way I feel I need to, I might have to go off on one! So imagine a sun-touched golden haired surfer, paddling her solid surfboard in the blue cool sea. Without recognition of what water is, nor any grasp of the concept of swimming, a shark could swim through the water and bite hard into the board crushing it with it's powerful jaws. Mechanised and cold, not one ethical thought of doubt crossing it's mind, no fear of spiritual consequence; the clockwork dynamics of reality simply playing out. It's the multifactored determinants of our world that drove the genetic evolution of that shark. 

Human Minds, Bodies, and Awareness 

Modern sharks instinctively swim, hunt and eat as a consequence of evolution. The natural world, has made many creatures like bio-organic robots. Even our lives are dominated by biological pullies and cogs, and even much of our human conduct is chemically triggered: Grehlin and leptin regulate our desire to eat and to stop eating. Melatonin and adenosine make us tired, cortisol makes us more hypervigilant, do you see where I'm going? 

We often describe sharks with vocabulary rich with soulless words, like cold, spiritless monster, we call them the perfect hunters and killing machines. Yet, we cannot for a second see ourselves that way, because, self-evidently, axiomatically, we experience and articulate being alive! Bollocks to a shark. 

I see myself as the awareness of a human, not just the human itself. Fancy myself as a bit of a mystic, but still, I honestly know I'm a bit of a shaven wookie, a Homer Simpson. The human animal is just as mechanical as the shark. Phenomenal consciousness within any form will vary: we can't know the sharkness of a shark any better than the shark would grasp the meaning of the German word for shark! Hai. 

What's this got to do with Personality Disorders? 

It has everything to do with personality disorders because we humans defied the laws of the natural world by denying our own physical instincts full control over us, we developed reason, logic and most of all discipline. Today, we are liberated, resulting with our awareness of what a 'person,' is, from the word 'persona' meaning mask, to appreciate that social etiquette or conduct has become personality. The etymology and development of personality is social, pertaining to conduct and assimilation. 

From a Spiritual Perspective 

It's a mistake to assume your personality is you, rather than your mask or social presentation. This persona is comprised of aspects of the mind, and one's own physical attributes, (namely genetics). Psychiatry should be looking at concepts surrounding social assimilation and ingrained behaviours not highlighting a faulty personality. 

How we see Ourselves and Others

In all thinking creatures, lots of well organised braincells enable higher processing. This means the performance of certain tasks; unlike humans, copious olfactory neurons give dogs their superior sense of smell; sharks can detect blood from miles away. As we humans evolved; developing reason, morals, and our arts and sciences, we suffered for it. 

Our Complicated Nature

We realised the harsh realities surrounding death on an intellectual level. We knew mourning, and grasped impermanence, existensialist fear and still sugar-coat it. Of course, we avoid such things, pleasure seeking behaviours and comfort take pride of place. 

Unlike snakes, sharks and chickens who are unburdened of the finite implications of non-being, no evidence shows all animals wrestling with nihilistic trappings of athiest philosophy; our, uniquely human words, and complex and stupid ways such as flat earth actvism, our religious teachings etcetera are testament to the fact that we are a species that will define itself. 

Putting it to Bed

To end this madness, let's consider thought that is considered to be caused by the mind, not bodily mechanics. First off, mathematics, we can say, isn't inspired by a biocommunicator like grehlin or melatonin — disciplined discussions don't require key neurotransmitters to drive a person into a debate. The pious meditations we choose to practice don't result from peptides, but from the self which we need to grow. A life of embracing egotism, and hedonism are not helpful for personalities that endure disorder.

That little idea is quite sweet. We are more than just crude matter and desires. We are the experience of our experience, 'being' has layers'. If you've been told your personality isn't quite orderly enough, or you've had social conduct or assimilation issues, you have the opportunity to practice self awareness with meditation. The answers are with you. 

Do you think the term 'Personality Disorder' needs updating?